"Insert Cheesy Michael W. Smith Song Title Here"

I started going to these events for Catholic young adults. I wanted to meet people and do things. I have 4 people I spend time with regularly and only one of them really likes to go places. So I figured even if I don't need new bosom buddies, I could use some casual friends, with whom I share common beliefs, that would be willing to do things that don't involve sitting on the couch watching Netflix (an act I do actually love). Since my active person renaissance has commenced, I have not seen home much at all and I have been enjoying that busy feeling of yore. So what's the problem? All these "young" people seem to have their lives together. They have nice cars, houses, salaries, careers, expendable income, some have families, fiancees, and life experiences I couldn't touch with a stick. (Let's not forget that I have Katrina and a house fire, so that's something, I guess) What's worse is that people who were working on their undergrad while I was getting my useless 2nd Master are now teaching or student teaching and they all seem to have it together much more than me.

I'm not sure what I am doing wrong.
I'm not sure why, at 29, I am still living from pay check to pay check, worried about unpaid medical bills, how I'm gonna afford AIP friendly food, freaking out about my next living situation, and begging the credit gods to raise my score. No where in sight is an opportunity to move up in the world. What skills do I have? What did I spend 10 years in school for? I feel prepared for nothing. I feel qualified for nothing.

I am having more bad teaching days than good. I feel like I loose 1 student a week. I love the flexibility of teaching but I want stability in income. I feel like I want to eat my cake and I can't.

I am glad I am surrounded by supportive friends, even those far away. And without my faith I'm pretty sure I would have given up by now.
But some weeks I just need to know where this journey is taking me. I need to know if I am actually listening to what my God wants me to do. And right now, I don't know.
ACTS retreat this week, so i'll keep my ears open.