It seems a distant memory
Though not so long ago
Your fire was impetuous & intoxicating
Yet sincere and unguarded
I was blissfully enraptured,
Requiring someone to pinch me awake.
I received my ill wish...
Quite suddenly the flames died and my eyes opened
I nursed the embers with my breath
But they ignored my efforts
I grasped the hot ashes just to feel something
Soon dark coldness engulfed me
My hands, though scarred and burned
Remain the only reminder of your soft and certain lips
The darkness, the antithesis of you bright curious eyes
The coldness, a drastic change from your warm embrace
I'm only soothed by your constant smile
Opposites consume my questioning mind
Compromise. Understanding. Confusion.
Do I want too much from you?
You ask for my patience
I simply ask for your kiss
This stalemate is as cold as marble chess pieces
And in this battle we both loose
Thursday, March 27, 2014
Wednesday, March 5, 2014
Days really do go by...
Lots of thing happen very quickly yet more time passes than you realize.
In early February, I began selling Arbonne. Their moto is pure, safe, and beneficial. Their skin and body products stress the importance of botanicals. Their nutrition products are focused on all natural ingredients that are gluten free and vegan friendly. Two and a half weeks ago, after I went to bed the night of my first launch party, I woke up around 2am to noise being made by neighbors. Long story short, my apartment building was on fire. The next 3 hours were spent watching the units I share a wall with burn to nothingness. We were safe, the pup was safe, and we did not get flames.
However, the smoke damage was horrid. As my lease was up on the 28th and there were only 1 bedroom apts left in the complex, I was essentially homeless.
Xander and I stayed with my boyfriend for two weeks while I tried to find him a foster home and clear out my apartment.
Thankfully, I had insurance so I did not have to do everything, but it was stressful enough. I also just haven't been well lately. So I am in pain, have no energy, but I'm spending my days sorting through a soot filled apartment and riding around the city looking for a house.
I am tired.
Now I am staying with a friend, Xander is being cared for by a former school mate, and I still haven't had time to rest.
Today is Ash Wednesday
I would like to not complain but I haven't won that battle today.
To kick off my getting healthier and Lent, I began a 28 day cleanse. It's Arbonne's product. Nutritional protein shakes combined with "clean" foods will make up the rest of my month. I'm also going to start lifting with the bf. Hopefully, by february, I might start to feel a bit better.
I have thought a lot about what I want to give up for lent. I don't want to do the shallow junk food offering.
But I have decided this detox will be a part of my lenten sacrifice, because that way, I'll actually follow it. And after the 28 days, I'd like to continue a healthy food lifestyle.
My goals this lent include daily prayer, and keeping a list of 3 things I am thankful for everyday.
I will completely eradicate any cursing from my vocabulary.
I have deleted my fb app. Because I have a business and other commitments through this social site, I will however allow myself to use a computer to access it.
I don't currently have internet access so that isn't as easy as you think. The time i would have wasted staring at my phone, I hope to use in prayer.
I want to do a weekly Bible study with Francisco, though I doubt that will happen.
I would also like to attend adoration and stations of the cross once a week.
I think I could do one more thing without being overwhelmed but for now, these are my plans.
So wish me well, I love Lent.
It's time to get back to the basics and start from scratch. Time to remake ourselves.
What will you be doing or giving up for Lent?
In early February, I began selling Arbonne. Their moto is pure, safe, and beneficial. Their skin and body products stress the importance of botanicals. Their nutrition products are focused on all natural ingredients that are gluten free and vegan friendly. Two and a half weeks ago, after I went to bed the night of my first launch party, I woke up around 2am to noise being made by neighbors. Long story short, my apartment building was on fire. The next 3 hours were spent watching the units I share a wall with burn to nothingness. We were safe, the pup was safe, and we did not get flames.
However, the smoke damage was horrid. As my lease was up on the 28th and there were only 1 bedroom apts left in the complex, I was essentially homeless.
Xander and I stayed with my boyfriend for two weeks while I tried to find him a foster home and clear out my apartment.
Thankfully, I had insurance so I did not have to do everything, but it was stressful enough. I also just haven't been well lately. So I am in pain, have no energy, but I'm spending my days sorting through a soot filled apartment and riding around the city looking for a house.
I am tired.
Now I am staying with a friend, Xander is being cared for by a former school mate, and I still haven't had time to rest.
Today is Ash Wednesday
I would like to not complain but I haven't won that battle today.
To kick off my getting healthier and Lent, I began a 28 day cleanse. It's Arbonne's product. Nutritional protein shakes combined with "clean" foods will make up the rest of my month. I'm also going to start lifting with the bf. Hopefully, by february, I might start to feel a bit better.
I have thought a lot about what I want to give up for lent. I don't want to do the shallow junk food offering.
But I have decided this detox will be a part of my lenten sacrifice, because that way, I'll actually follow it. And after the 28 days, I'd like to continue a healthy food lifestyle.
My goals this lent include daily prayer, and keeping a list of 3 things I am thankful for everyday.
I will completely eradicate any cursing from my vocabulary.
I have deleted my fb app. Because I have a business and other commitments through this social site, I will however allow myself to use a computer to access it.
I don't currently have internet access so that isn't as easy as you think. The time i would have wasted staring at my phone, I hope to use in prayer.
I want to do a weekly Bible study with Francisco, though I doubt that will happen.
I would also like to attend adoration and stations of the cross once a week.
I think I could do one more thing without being overwhelmed but for now, these are my plans.
So wish me well, I love Lent.
It's time to get back to the basics and start from scratch. Time to remake ourselves.
What will you be doing or giving up for Lent?
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