I'm laying on my sofa here, scrolling through fb while my four-legged buddy nuzzles up close to me. It's a chilly day outside and my first day to sleep in since last Wednesday. It came to mind, that I don't really blog as much as I used to. So I started to think back and figure out why. I have more time now than I've had in 3 years so I know I'm not too busy. Therefore, it can only be one thing, I'm boring. Nothing much is happening in my life right now. Every day is much like the one before...and I have no problem with that. I rarely see the large group of people I used to call my friends. They've even stopped inviting me to things. This past weekend was a big one, I went to the opera, then for late night tacos, then on sunday watched the superbowl at a friends house. Yeah, by monday I was exhausted. Sounds kind of sad, especially when i think back on how filled my every day used to be. I know I would never be able to handle it again. That realization has slowly been creeping in. The realizations that I like being boring, I like having only small options on my plate, I like not being pulled in 5 directions.....kind if scare me because it seems so foreign to who I am, who I have been.
I'm been thinking about different careers. It is sealed in fate that I hate teaching high school kids voice lessons. But now I'm wondering if teaching younger kids or even HS kinds in a classroom setting is something I could do. The subject would most definitely not be music, and I could never be a choir director. So lately, I've been tossing the idea of being a religion teacher around. But I'm not sure if the expense and stress of more school is in my future. I really need to get this debt in check, and I am trying. I also am not done with music, I'm just trying to figure out a way to make the preverbal ends meet.
I always ask God for signs and one of my favorite verses is my prayer to God for guidance...Psalm 25: 4-5. I recently made a picture of this and hung it in my apartment as a daily reminder that my path, my way in the world, is not all about ME ME ME, and that I have to trust that the direction and guidance of God is what will lead me to the right place.
So when extra jobs seem too hard to get and keep and current jobs shrink up, I try to open up my mind. What am I supposed to be doing. Or what will God help me with right now in order to achieve what he wants. But I don't dwell, just open up my mind. This thinking has lead me to a work at home business option. There are tons of network marketing companies out there and on top of that Avon, mary k, sentsy, tupperware...ect. You never think it will change your life and usually you feel like you'll fail or only support your habit. However, I have decided to sell Arbonne. The people doing well are real people. A girl I went to High School with has 2 former roommates who are using Arbonne as their income. Everything about it seemed to be Christian and I soon learned that the higher ups in my line were all Enthusiastic Christ followers. With prayer being thrown around constantly, I feel like no bad can come from it. As long as I believe that God is gonna help me through these financial difficulties and work hard and not be lazy, I think I can do this.
I'm motivated and excited and scared to death all at the same time. But I will contacting people today. I am ready. Please pray for me.
