Trust

I don't really think of myself as a trusting person. I have trouble believing people are genuine. When meeting new people, I take a long time before I accept that fact that they may actually just like me and aren't screwing with me. I even have trouble trusting in God.I feel like I have to count on myself to fix things instead of Him. So I thought I kept myself pretty guarded. Apparently not.
I'm pretty good about being a loner. I like to do what needs to get done on my own. I don't like asking for help. I'm stubborn. But even the strongest people need a shoulder to cry on or someone to whom they can vent their doubts or frustrations.
I have been in that mental state for the past 3 weeks. I had 4 different medical problems hit me during that span, all of which were physically painful and both emotionally and physically draining.
I have learned that I can not discuss my doubts and frustrations in a place where I thought it was safe. My issues were misconstrued to make me seem inadequate, weak, and unprepared. I am none of the above.
I am furious that someone whom I trusted and who i thought knew me would have these thoughts about me and share them with someone else. I am livid and I have no choice but to suffer in silence about it.

I have been burned twice in a matter of a few months.
This does nothing for my trust issues.
Looks like i'll be closing up even more.