Is this the end?

Well, it's been a while. I was sitting here alone at my kitchen table drinking this beautifully dressed Dos Equis and I thought, hey, you should blog. So here we are.

May was busy. So I was looking forward to the mild month of June, but that never happened.

This weekend I was on a team that put on a retreat at my church. It was a great day. We had around 28 rereatants and they all seemed to enjoy themselves. We had a great speaker, my meditation activity went well, and I loved my table. I was so happy after this day! It really helped affirm that I want to do ministry. Speaking about ministry, I am co-facilitating a women's study group called Endow. I am so ridiculously excited about it. It is for small groups of about 15 and we are probably at the limit already. I might have to cut off enrollment! I know 15 isn't a large number but I was worried that it would fail. Which after talking to my spiritual advisory, I am apparently low in the self-esteem. I mean, I feel pretty confident about things, I think of myself as a realist, not a pessimist. But I guess when it all boils down to it, I have little self-esteem. I realized that truth earlier today whilst flipping through profiles on Catholic Match (yes, it's come to this) and whenever I say an attractive guy I wouldn't linger cuz I felt/feel that I had/have no chance, Which I suppose can sound insulting to the guys I do message, but if I message someone, I do find them attractive, they just might not be the conventional attractive. I'm rambling. 

I'm gonna apply to a Catholic university on Friday for Theology. I'm gonna do it. What else am I doing with my life? Music is not a career for my in my sickly state. Not that some ministry position will be any better, but I might be able to find something part time somewhere. 

...wow, Dos Equis is so smooth...

My clothes don't fit so I will be saying goodbye to beer very soon...well tonight I guess.

Goodbye beer...it's been a journey and I will never forget what you have taught me and will always love you, Whitney Houston style. 

I guess I am not prone to write as much because I don't have many followers.
And I have a habit of complaining and no one wants to read that, 

My life has lost excitement and my mind has lost wit.

I have lost my voice.

Is it time to put Mad Mo's Musings to rest? 

Oh someone tell me! 

The answer is yes, for tonight anyway, my glass is empty and my eyes are heavy.

Time for some sleep so I can wake up early tomorrow and try to keep my commitment to morning prayer time.

If you are a reader, let me know if you want to keep reading my dull words!

Comment your thoughts below.

nite nite

Mo